Help :( IM SO SAD AND ILL NEVER STOP FEELING THIS WAY D: ?

It seems that you have had a tough childhood. Please realize that things could be a lot worse for you. If you live the rest of your life believing that bad things are going to happen to you, they will. You have the CHOICE to change your thinking and your attitude. Do everything in your power to be positive and do good things for the people you love. If you let the evil in (whether it's your father's abuse, or anyone else in your life that is not a positive influence) you will be negatively affected and these "unlucky" things will continue to happen. Keep positive thoughts in your head, teach your siblings how to be the best they can be and live to your full potential. Any outside factors need to be ignored if they don't make you feel empowered and excited and plain old good. I think you should talk to someone if you think that would help, but trust me... people have been through a lot worse, and come out on top. You can do it too!